At 9 AM, she used to come in driveway and smoke everyday. My arrival time was around 9:15 until I find out her timings, observing her daily going into lift for 15 days. I began to come at 8:55, keep standing besides my cycle and incessantly looking her. I liked the way she used to stand holding the smartphone in one hand and put the cigarette in her mouth. The way she used to take every puff and blow out the smoke out of her mouth, she seemed to enjoy each moment of her smoke. She was so calm and cool that she had to use lighter or matchsticks to smoke.
she was so cool
I used to feel icy
when I looked at her.
she was like the river
which is flowing
and also not flowing,
I wanted to be the wind
synchronize with her flow,
disturb the calmness inside her pleasantly,
always remain in touch,
whisper softly in her ears,
play with the flow,
and get along with the stream eventually.
For a whole month I observed her every day at same place, while sitting at my bicycle or standing beside it, her whole act of smoking used to bring smile on my face. I wonder why they say “smoking is injurious to health”, it was very healthy for me and for her too as she seemed more beautiful and healthy with each day passing by. One day I went to her and asked for a puff, I took a blow and coughed and she began laughing. “why did you come if you don’t smoke ?”, She asked.
I said “I just wanted a puff”
“Liar”, she said.
“I like the way you smoke.
You are so calm.”
Our eyes met and we passed a smile. I asked her for coffee, she said yes and then we went for a coffee. We went to Starbucks for three days and thus, we began to hang out. This continued for a while. We played music together, ate ice creams and had had great time.
I asked why did she smoke ?
She replied “why don’t you shave?”
I remained silent.
I shut up and we kept hanging out the way we used to.
She was 29,
I was 21,
she used to call me, “the kid”
and I used to call her, “the lady”.
She never let me smoke
I never let her shave my beards.
One day we decided to go on an adventure in which we would board the first train we’d see and then go on traveling for at least 2 months. For continuous 7 days after we decided on the adventure, we began going to each other’s place. Everyday we drank wine, talk continuously until we slept. Then the day comes when we were moving our adventure. We were coming from two different routes to railway station. We took first train but different trains, she reached there first and took the first train. I got a letter from a kid along with our photo.
I am here first and as per our promise, I am boarding the first train I will see. I read your diary when I came to your place last night. I am very much touched after I read those beautiful words. I am handing this letter to a kid with our photo, I hope he will be able to deliver this letter to you. Bye. Miss you.
Have a great journey, see you soon if we may.
now whenever I miss her
I go to that place
imagining she is smoking there
holding up the cigarette between her fingers
and slowing playing with the smoke
her eyes were so gorgeous
that smoke around her
appeared like clouds in front of moon.