the confused heart and the chaotic mind

nothing feels right
nothing feels wrong
with so many people around
still feel so alone
such is the situation with
the confused heart and the chaotic mind.

with so many options
and numerous floating situations
everything seems simple
and
everything seems complex
where
I want to get away from all the bad
but also
desire to grab all the good from each option
forgetting the fact
good comes with bad
rose comes with thorn.

why am I so confused?
for all the good things
I want to do
or
for all the bad things
I fear to face.

why do I feel so chaotic?
for the brainstorming
going in my mind
with all the mind maps
I am trying to create.

whatever the outcome may be
chaotic minds can bring a lot of change
confused heart will figure out the option
may have to travel a lot
here and there
to very distant place in search of peace
the curiosity will never die
the anxiety will try to dwell
but the living situation will bring light
and a way to go long way
such is the situation with
the confused heart and the chaotic mind.

‘ll meet you there

’twas dark
’twas grave
’twas silent
but the only thing one could feel
was the fear growing inside
’twas burial ground a mile ahead
heart was pumping hard
head was feeling the pressure
somebody came
and asked me to turn back
warned me I’d die
am not here
to survive
I said
there’s one field
between
life and death
and
it’s called living
I will meet your there 😀

the thread

being attached to a thread,
the thread drags me,
the thread makes me run,
the thread makes me walk,
sometimes it’s tight,
sometimes it’s loose,
the thread becomes the reason to breath,
the thread becomes the motive to give in,
the thread tests me,
it pushes me,
it gives me bruises,
it gets the controls over me,
I can’t slip it,
sometimes it comes in the form of family,
sometimes friends,
sometimes love,
the other times just the fantasy
the thread is all I have got,
the thread is life.

Stage of colors

Life is also a stage where there is a background and some colors.

just a matter of time

I’m scared,

I’m distracted,

there are a lot questions which need answers,

I feel broken,

I feel lost,

everything seems complex,

I wish I could open up to somebody,

I wish somebody could understand me,

in whole lot of crowd I feel alone,

the stars are inspiring me to shine,

the rains are patting my back to move ahead,

the greenery is providing me the energy to be positive,

the clouds are the hands who come when I feel burnt,

the earth holds me to basic and fundamentals of everything,

the trees teach me to remain intact until feet is on the ground,

with so much power of nature to support me,

how could I grieve ?

it will take time.

but I will rise,

I will rise and

keep on rising to the limits of sky,

greenery will take me on it’s lap,

and I will cherish every moment,

it’s just a matter of time,

it’s just a matter of time,

just a matter of time,

a matter of time,

of time,

time.